In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.
Posted on 28 January 2011
DISCLAIMER This is my opinion and my opinion only in what I wrote, though I am sure many more can agree with such
First, before I get into anything, I am going to start with how I was brought into the scene. Then I am going to go over my thoughts and opinions. Finally, I will come to my conclusions. What people do with my writing, is exactly that, what they do with it; it is your choice. I am just putting it out there in the universe.
I started in the scene in 2004 when I was 22. I was brought into the scene by a boy that I was dating, who introduced me to an older gentleman named Mwac. Mwac was in and is in charge of KommonBond in San Antonio and one day he pulled me aside on his back patio away from the group in his house. He took me aside like a parent would a child, and explained certain aspects of BDSM, the lifestyle, kink, and the ways of the world in this way that I could understand. It was then and it was not until much later that I fully understood what he was talking about and how it pertained to me and my lifestyle.
He guided me to take things one step at a time. He told me to study, to read, to research what I am interested in. To look at seriously whatever intrigues me before going into it, so I know the precautions, safety, and protocol involved in whatever is taking place. I, took a step back and listened with an open heart and 2 open ears as it was music to me, things I needed to hear for the longest time. Maybe because I was 22, maybe because I was reprogrammed from my head injury, maybe because I was treated the way I was by my ex; maybe because of a lot of things...He gave me Screw The Roses Give Me The Thorns to read and tested me on it when I said I was done to make sure I knew what I read before allowing me to attend one of the classes. I loved the rules. I secretly loved the protocol, but I didn't know why.
When I came into the scene I called myself a Switch as I saw both submissive and Dominant tendancies in myself. Plus, I wanted to try both sides of things to make sure I knew what I liked and to be sure of everything; so when I took classes, I was the tryer and the tryee; no matter how much I didn't like things. Flogging, whips, spanking benches, clothespins, violet wands, etc...bottomed for it...not so much of a fan for accepting it, but I sure as hell will give it to someone with a smile! evil grin ...well...except the violet wand...but that's a whole other ball of wax...I hate that damn thing...
Anyway, after learning as much as I could for the time I was involved, I had to become vanilla for awhile before moving to Dallas. I came out again in the Dallas scene and made friends with people of all ages and learned from everyone. It was awesomeness. There was some tension, but not too much as the 2 crowds still worked together fairly well from what I saw at the time that I was there. Then I had to move to Austin because my daughter had to be hospitalized because of the neglect from the school...sigh...whole other issue there...
So, I move. Yes, I understand protocol is different everywhere one goes; as everyone is entitled to have their own set of rules and protocol, as they should...even though there was issue with my protocol when I initially transferred here...but to each their own kink; not to be rude, crass, or out spoken, but can someone please explain to me what the problem is with the age gap between our fellow sisters and brothers of BDSM?
They went through the same hardship, I am sorry, they went through worse hardship then we go through today to get us to where we are in society...to where we can openly do what we practice and preach. They can educate us in the ways of the craft; in the ways of tradition; in the ways of technique; in the ways of pleasuring our bottoms; in the ways of pleasuring the Tops the correct way... They can train us to be better individuals as a whole, let alone in the BDSM world... Maybe I just do not get what it is...
Is it because of something that was done? Is it because of something that was said? All I have seen are people who are willing to bend over backwards to help to understand my path, to understand who I am, to learn, to educate myself, to make sure I am safe, to make sure that I am educated, to make sure that everything is kosher...
Why is it that the younger crowd is not connected with the older generation and visa versa? Is it for superficial reasons such as looks? Numbers of how old someone is? Is if for...? Or is there some deep seated issue that I am missing? Talking wih anyone of a different age is not scary, especially when they have information that they can share that is useful to aid one on their path; especially when one is so willing to help...there is so much that they are willing to share, but we have to be willing, open, and able to process it...we have to be respectful enough to approach them...we have to be honest within ourselves to be honest with them...we have to be open to hear what they have to say...
I am just saying, I would like to see the line between TNG and the Older Generation to be erased so everyone can work together. Maybe it is an ideal, maybe it is a Utopia, but it is something that I can see being beneficial for both. We as the "TNG" can learn from tnhe Older Genration and we as the younger generatio can bring passion an show them the life and spark again.
Anyway, I am done with my little schpiel...I hope it finds everyone well...Brightest blessings, all...
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