In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.
Posted on 4 April 2011
Austin Mentorship Program
As some of you know, I am in the A.M.P. this year. I am THRILLED to be a part of such a wonderful and enlightening group. Though it has been rough with managing the kids, time, homework, reading, life, understanding, and working on myself; so far it has been worth it and I know that it will and has been paying off with everything I have done and will do. The Boot Camps and Intensives were exactly that...intense...but well worth the internal work to find what I am and what I am not, what I need and what I do not need, what I want and what I do not want.
Now I am at the portion of the course where I am able to study under the Mentors. YEAH! The courses are a variety of subjects from Spirituality in the Lifestyle to Fire Play...mmmm...yummy...and all the Mentors are wonderful people in the community...I am soooooooo excited to work with them and learn from them...but I may have gone a little over board...but I wanted to learn everything I could while in this program. I could have taken just one course per month up until November, but I chose to take 13 courses...I wanted to learn everything I could about every subject that I could find that was available to me that interested me in the slightest. I am so enthralled in the idea that I am going to be able to learn so many skills, so many ideas, so much information, so much knowledge, so much wisdom...I am soooo excited...sigh...starry eyes
I have been in the lifestyle since 2004 and when I was brought to information that was best for me, I took it and went with it. I learned that I needed to study and learn things before I went into anything seriously, so I did. I went to classes and demos, I read books and the internet; yet in kink...I still felt like I was just floating around...just another person swinging a flogger...not enough training...not yet ready... I searched for programs and I found the Dallas Mentors Program, but I ended up moving to Austin because my daughter needed the hospitals that are here, and thankfully, there was a program here; I enrolled immedeately. I did this to further my education, to further my path, to aid me in all areas...mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually...
As soon as I found out what this program was, I had to do everything that I could to join. I hoped that I would be accepted and to my surprise, and thankfully, I was. I was so excited I couldn't help but to tell friends and those close to me who understood my life. When we had our first meeting, I was so nervous, so enthralled, so starstruck, and so bouncy at the same time...I couldn't wait to get started, yet I wanted another day to prepare myself. I didn't know what to expect, but I was expecting militaristic training, where we would be scolded for the slightest thing. Much to my surprise, over the course of the time, I only saw praise for every action we took. At first, I didn't know how to handle it, but I grew to start to accept it. It is still a work in progress.
Why I feel so drawn to this is still so clear...I needed the guidance...even though I know what I want has been within me all along, I needed and need someone(s) to aid me in finding it within myself to figure it out for myself. No one can do it for me, but they can point me in the right direction and give me clues on where to look, what to ask myself, who to go to for help, when I should do things, why situations happen, and how things work the way they do. Maybe not everything will be crystal clear or answered, but at least somethings will make more sense to me...hopefully...
So the moral of the story...the moral of the post...
Though it may not be for everyone, though not everyone can devote the time, effort, or energy to this...
I highly recommend that any Top/Dom(me)/Mistress/Master/Dominant seriously consider going through this course, not just to aid in their skills to learn their tools better...but to learn about themselves better.
Austin Mentorship Program - LadyDoriBelle | FetLife
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30 November 2021 as to such a review as to how such situations went as to the ironic portions as to the ways thereof in reference to a 20-20 review, I suppose the ways thereof are as the ways thereof were.