I have watched the disgrace that which those of which claim to consider as humanity fall from the graces of which the allowances which have been gifted to them go from the most amount of beauty to the furthest aspects from, as the human race has chosen which path to go of their own free will; to disintegrate from that which has been given to them to prosper in various ways, and though I have noticed a few doing that which they can I have seen many who have attempted to thwart the good efforts which disgusts me. I have seen how what once of purity in so many ways be distorted to what others thought of the gifts of the Divine churn and boil over into that which is the furthest aspects of what was explained to them, in such mannerisms which hath disgusted me in such ways. While there are the pleasures which have been allowed to flow throughout the various levels and ends of the earth have been tainted by those with the utmost impureness throughout every fiber of their beings, there have been those few who have maintained such necessities for themselves and those whom are of importance to them; I have witnessed others chastise them for such purity and sat by with rage flowing throughout my being for such inhumane treatments. I myself have done what I could in various measures and means to attempt to repair what little I could in my own way that which I have seen the failures throughout the human race in the small areas I could, only to have such a magnitude of disrespect thrown against me to rise above such paroxysms.
For example, what occurred during my Medal of Honor Art Project and the time thereof. I had already very much felt as an unwanted artist and that has only perpetuated such further in so many ways. How many letters have I written seeking assistance well before my Medal of Honor Art Project for assistance, and where has things gotten better? How many letters have I written since my Medal of Honor Art Project, and where has things gotten better? How many times have I tried to better myself to be able to have a job where I am able to do things and instead even volunteering has seemed to be of little worth, in various ways. At minimum, this has been my opinion through the treatments I have received and the ignoring which has occurred to what I have done. Did I initially volunteer to do anything more than help, not necessarily so; however at each point of doing so, there had been a moment where my thoughts wondered if it would be better if I had been able to hold a position where I worked and maybe then the respect I saw so many others get be something which I could have for myself as well. I learned otherwise, or at minimum that is how I had been made to feel. Is it arrogant for me to feel as such, or is it normal at a point to be so disgusted in various treatments and attempts to thwart the realities?
Yet now, I am tired and weary of such attempts.
If humanity no longer exists where it is no longer important for not just the physical aspects of what it is to be a human being to keep that which is considered to be lovely and beautiful; if humanity no longer exists to maintain the mental well being of that which is of importance; if humanity no longer exists to have the emotional balance to maintain the humanity of oneself; if humanity no longer exists where the sexuality is considered as sacred; if humanity no longer exists to maintain the spiritual purity of existence which is what keeps humanity in check; then I ponder what is the point of anything further for a so-called humanity, or human race? What is it that human beings truthfully seek and desire more than the gifts which have been granted to the human race, to continue to be allowed to exist within the universe? Why is it considered as of any importance any longer to allow humanity to be allowed to be within the universe, if humanity cannot maintain itself in the control which would be necessary for an allowance to interact with other beings outside of the earthly location? Does it truly have to be so complicated in this era, or is the curse that which such clips and editing of videos and photography lead the human race astray? When do those who realize such fallacies, return to their spiritualness of which they were given as a gift to remain within the holy realms of; and how if there are so many imbalances in various means and measures, with such distortions? How do you think not just God looks at such choices, though also the spiritual entities and beings throughout the universe?
Is there any importance any further for humanity in this universe, or is humanity so far gone that they think there is an allowance outside of the earth itself without the grace of God? Even those which are called aliens to the human race believe and know the existence of God, and respect such; same for those throughout the oceanic waters, and yet both sides watch and listen to how humanity treats one another and then similarly listens to those who want to explore further of each area only to deny both of such because of the choices made and the lack of growth in a more progressive direction. Has anyone thought about how many advances have continued on the earthly level of the world and the universe and yet the ability to travel for more throughout the depths of the ocean and further with more of a capacity throughout the galaxies of the universe has been so limited? There is a simple answer to such, and quite easy as well. Does humanity think that the games they play are what others outside of the earth’s land play? If so, let me clarify this for you; no they do not play games, the way humans play with each other’s lives nor emotions. Though they are disgusted by such, when seeing how that is done on earth. It is one thing to play games for an every now and then sort of thing as they do understand and comprehend the need for such to relax in certain aspects, though the way humanity prefers to play games instead of living and doing; is another aspect for the limited amount of contact, through watching and listening to how such is and has been done for so long.
Maybe there is something to be said about those who only spend so much time playing video games, who are unable to distinguish the differences between real life compared to. Maybe there would not be the levels of mental illnesses if such were not a huge consistency, in comparison to the days when games were kept on a board and the aspects which of such were not put out into real life experiences; as even back in the days of old, games were only for certain times, and known not to spill over into everyday existences when interacting with other people. I have stated and written before of the definition in my opinion of true schizophrenia being when a human being is unable to distinguish the difference between the spiritual from real life, though I wonder if such can be additionally added in reference to the amount of games played and the effects thereof for a similarity of symptoms.
For example, I knew females who were a part of The Jade Wolfe Coven who not only played games continuously with others’ lives, but also knew not of the consequences of their choices in reference to the spiritual actions they were taking. I can look back and see certain similarities between such individuals, just as I can see similarities between the way my two ex-sisters-in-law had been with the reference of how they raised their children; in comparison to the way my now-dead-ex-husband’s brother had been a part of raising his wife’s children with her, and the way I raised my son and my daughter. Though my ex-sisters-in-law’s children preferred to play games instead of living real life until my ex-sister-in-law’s two daughters I knew were able to see more in a realistic way of life, where they were able to open their eyes to the real world; my ex-brother-in-law’s second wife’s daughters in many ways already had their eyes open to such realities, the way my son and my daughter had. Though there were different life lessons to learn from I guesstimate similarly to the way my son and my daughter had seen and learned, so too had my ex-brother-in-law and his second wife along with the daughters of; far quicker than my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina [Nichols] Osteen’s two daughters Sondra Marie and Ariel Marie Osteen, and my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez’s son Joseph Anthony Lopez had or could. Possibly because of the similarities as to the females of The Jade Wolfe Coven, who preferred to play games instead of living real life.
There are prophetic means of which the second coming and the arrival of the one true Messiah have been predicted for humanity of when God would arrive on the earthly plane of existence, the timing of such, and the way the one human being with supernatural powers would be. Some have seen such times, and some have seen such of the one. Yet then comes the questions of which why would that reality be where God is to adhere to the same rules of the spiritual aspects, when watching the hypocrisies throughout? Why are human beings so arrogant now to think to tell God of that which God shall do?
Lest ye be without sin then ye cast the first stone, correct?
Who is to demand of and/or tell the celestial of that which will or will not be done, energetically or in any other way; without a legitimate explanation as to why one way or another in truth? If I am accurate it is the prayers which God answers and begets of those who seek, and yet in such the amount of those who have sought only to take advantage of without giving homage where deserved and earned is also a part of prophecy for a specific amount of time before God becomes so infuriated with humanity; that God’s fury is ignited and instead of the graces once poured out freely, the vengeance is thus until humanity is awoken to such reality.
Wake up, and know.
Which human being is going to face God and tell God, that is of acceptableness of that which they have done throughout their lifetimes? Is it considered as one action to be acceptable before God, or is it not in Holy Scriptures that when the second coming happens to be where the true Messiah arrives on the earthly level of existence the grievances of that which is throughout the world will be shown and then the aspects of which will either get better or choose their own destruction? In such since the events of 11 September 2001 I have watched and been involved where I have to do and be at the best as possible, and yet in such on this day of 21 May 2020 I wonder what it is that even kept such attempts going with such minimal aspects of respect given in return for such aspects to do as I have. Finding a silver lining has been difficult, though I have done everything possible to find the silver lining in each possible situation I have been personally a part of; or at minimum of each situation I have been told about, or heard of.
How many times before 11 September 2001 and after that date have I told people “I cannot tell a lie” only to be called a liar, and infuriate my anger to the point of fury and rage as those exact same individuals lied to me in whichever ways they have chosen to do so whether or not in person? How many times have I been accused of cheating, and yet never once have; by the exact same individuals who either themselves were at the time cheating on their relationships or were assisting others to cheat on their relationships? How many have accused me of stealing from them, when it was they who hid their own to then blame another for the theft of which they did? How many have had idols of which would not stand to the tests of time from their pasts to a current point in time and put others whom they saw as more befitting because of simplicities which were nothing more than mere illusions of that which they portrayed, and when the moment came to prove themselves there were not capable in the long term; whereas what I have done has withstood not only the tests of time, but the strength and determination needed to continue forward in such ways with the background to prove as such?
How many times have my children and my family members been told of a false claim of me or shortened what was said to fit a narrative, yet they have done so themselves? How many have claimed of being a murderer when I have not murdered anyone nor have I even done anything remotely close to such or those who have killed have done so in self-defense, by those exact individuals who have murdered the innocence of children and/or murdered themselves while falsely claiming their status above mine simply because they knew how to conceal such in comparison? How can those no see the difference, yet when they are left alone to themselves the feel what they have done is wrong and have yet to make amends upon that which was wrong for their choices they knew were incorrect? How many times have my actions proven my words and visa versa, in comparison to those who claimed they should be the ones looked up to as though their morals and ethics were of consistent value; when they were the furthest from, and how have they been in regards of those they have had partnerships with? How many who have falsely told me of being jealous in a negative manner, were speaking with jealousy straight from their hearts to their mouths; whether through coveting physical possessions of another and/or another person’s relationship and/or another’s experiences? How many have used my name and/or image to get credances they did not earn, though falsely told others of their connection in ways which would not be verifiable nor acceptable being in full and complete truth instead of a skewed?
The list goes on however, I digress.
Though there are some who tell stories as though they know or can claim as one thing though are another, I unlike those individuals will inform you if I am telling you a story or if I am telling you of a specific experience. Unless I state I am telling you a story as fiction, know that I am telling you the truth only as the truth. For example when I speak or when I write unless I specifically state the aspect is of fiction, know that either I have witnessed with my own eyes, heard with my own ears, or have done so myself. In such an example when I have discussed and written about my SCUBA Diving experiences they are not stories, they are of fact. When I have spoke and written of where I have gone and what I have done to survive such experiences those are not stories of fable, those are real. Know that what I speak of write about what I have been told or heard, that is of factual basis of what I have been told or what I have heard. The ability to research in this era to prove such realities in truth are available if you are actually willing to do the research into others’ existences in reference to what I have seen of their actions and/or heard from their mouths/faces or in others’ cases, their fingertips. For example a more recent video recording I had completed where I discuss that which had been prayed for and the aspects which came to be, throughout various methods and ways in my *(OFFICIAL)* YouTube Channel Reverend MeeLing videos as there are plenty to choose from which you can click here to be taken to my webpage for the multitude of my videos.
In such within this writing while I have been realistically so many aspects of that which ironically had been previously written by the Prophet Joseph Smith in regards to Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints to be then explained how one specific reality of which is so small and faery sized of an issue in regards to the reality of when I surfaced from each SCUBA Dive of the fact the coffee I drank was what assisted me for each SCUBA Dive though especially the recovery for myself after my SCUBA Dive when surfacing from the bottom of the ocean where I was when SCUBA Diving at the USS/USNS Vandenberg in the Matthias Abyss; is what assisted me to recover and can be joked, that coffee is one of the nectars of the God, though initially given juice which I discussed well before had made my stomach pains worse and I threw up over the side of the ship. I can have tea with coffee, though tea by itself I can only have without negative repercussions above the Mason-Dixon Line; and while variances are made for those with diabetes for fasting or food allergies or etcetera, is it only because of having landed at the bottom of the ocean and surfacing from the area of the Matthias Abyss which is not considered as good enough among other forms of proof? The variances which have been made for a variety of individuals of different languages, of different physical capabilities, of different health conditions, and the like as I discussed today as well as previously in regards of my Baptism only in reference to coffee and nothing more; I am unable to comprehend the aspects which is not considered as acceptable.
Unless as I said when speaking with some of there is not one congregant who has ever had a sip of coffee from the time of their Baptism which in turn by technicalities undo each of their Baptisms to be correct, because such would be viewed by such teachings in reference to my understanding from the adamancy of the discussions about coffee; not forgetting other aspects of what has been seen or looked at, if I am accurate in such. Is there not the modifications in this era in various ways for many, or is it simply singling out because I am the only person who has landed where I did and survived? If I am being singled out for such, why? What is the purpose for such? Is there realistically a need to continue such sort of testing of me, and if so why? Have I not done enough to prove myself? What more? Though I suppose I should also ponder, why should I bother any further to prove myself? What more is truthfully needed to prove who I am, as it is known what I have done?
There are multiple health benefits for a moderated aspect of having coffee, just as there are health benefits of moderated intake of varied aspects throughout the various natural plants that grow from the earth in different measures. I know I am not the only person who has found health benefits from coffee and if that is truthfully the only thing which holds me back from being able to be Baptized and it is a health benefit for me to have coffee when below the Mason-Dixon Line though a non-health benefit to have coffee as I do below the Mason-Dixon Line when above the Mason-Dixon Line because of the energetic aspects of, then I apologize for wasting the time of those within the church. Just as I have written about and discussed and visa versa of the health benefits of Medical Marijuana for some, such has been ignored even by those who know such of which I have spoken and written to be true and accurate. I have written enough as I have said enough, and I am exhausted from both. As such I will also quickly add in my own opinion of the realities of which those of the LGBTQP communities are simply born as they are and whether those who are simply born as gay or bi or lesbian or queer or pansexual or polyamorous or their internal spirit is more masculine/feminine and they feel more comfortable in their own skin when dressed in other clothing; such has been going on since the dawn of time for humanity, unless I am inaccurate and the original actors who pretended to be females were not males dressed as females or the equivalent of the modern day term of Drag back in the prior times on this planet. Again unless there is not one member of the church which has ever had a different sexual experience with one the love who is solely of the opposite sex, I wonder in reference to such Baptisms.
However also I have sent in my books to the state of Texas for the religious organization exemption tax at the beginning of the coronavirus lockdown and was denied of such exemption because of not having the scheduled time of services in the way that other known churches are, and when allowed I can pick up my books; though that whole aspect of opening up to be able to pick such up or the modification for such to occur for my exempt status, has not been allowed. Unknowing of the name of the Prophet Joseph Smith previously to the timeframe of speaking with the Elders and then the Sisters of Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints I unknowingly had already felt as such, though not just of similarities of his experiences; and just as he grew tired of the bureaucracies back then when there much less legal regulations, I can see why now in various ways. However admittedly, I saw and spoke of such long before this moment of typing this article and similarly to many other times; few ever believed of such truths I spoke as well as wrote of who I knew. Ironically I have also stated those who do not learn from history will repeat such, and look at what similarities throughout history are being repeated even at this very moment. Humanity wonders why they have not been allowed to have consistent contact with Mer-People, spiritual entities, and aliens as called on earth from other galaxies; well, each have known and seen what has been repeatedly done, and have denied such accesses similarly to the way such has been going on in similar ways. Until such a shift occurs in which the acceptance of such is not just a quiet moment but is made known throughout the world where the realities are known and seen by all, though also just as much acknowledged and recognized; such transgressions will continue to hold humanity back, by humanity itself.
Then again possibly because of multiple religious organizations choosing to deny the fact that there is a point in time where the population of the earth no longer needs to have each female bear however many children to maintain the farm and the levels of the earth would be able to reach the maximum population in which the oceanic waters would begin to rise because of the additional weight of the amount of people in each location, then the promise of not flooding the earth again is not due to God’s fury but through the amount of living in excess; correct? What happens when someone takes a naturally buoyant object and continues to put more weight into such an object? Hypothetically, one can think of the land mass as such in regards to sea levels rise over the years and not necessarily the same as climate change. However that is another topic for another time if I feel like discussing such; whether in words and/or in writing, as realistically, there is no difference when it comes to me.
The irony of certain aspects in reference to the aspects of Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints founded by Prophet Joseph Smith is upon reading certain aspects, I thought such the group had been the one to have been chosen to bring forth the realizations of the realities of as their spiritual practices for the most part are the closest in certain ways to that of the Hebrews of the olden days and as the chosen ones of the United States of America; I wonder why such a small aspect such as coffee is the one thing preventing such. Or am I wrong again, or am I just infuriated because of the levels certain things have gotten to in regards of this quarantine lockdown, or more?
That being stated, soon I will be preparing to leave the state of Texas to go to Washington state to pick up my two largest pieces from my Medal of Honor Art Project. Though I received a phone call asking about certain things only because as I was told the individual had seen me on the news who I had not heard from in quite some time and though a friendly discussion, similarly to the discussion of recommending to go to Montana and the aspects of turning out the way it had; I will choose to not adhere to such, because of how that particular trip had gone in 2019. Though not out of spite, though because of needing to take care of responsibilities as I had already known needed to be taken care of just as a few other things need to be taken care of. Unless there is a reason for such not to go pick up the two pieces to take where I will take those pieces to, I have already picked up and dropped off those two Medal of Honor Artwork pieces; and have picked up the historical and spiritual rubbings of the majority of Medal of Honor recipients for the state of Texas' Medal of Honor Art Project to drop off 28 pieces thus far, and I can make a slight joke in regards of the ones I found as a surprise when in Concho in reference to the few I could not pick up in other locations for a different aspect thereof.
At this point, I have not seen any reason to not go continue on with my Medal of Honor Art Project though my own temper tantrums in reference to other aspects mainly having to do with the pain levels still being as they are though in many ways worsened because of the electrical situations which occurred when I was in Washington state. Whether that specifically has to do with the area of Seattle-Tacoma in conjunction with the constant altitude changes or the combination of being above the Mason Dixon line, I am not fully certain; though I know it was more-so the altitude changes when in eastern Washington comparatively being worsened though the longer I had been in the Seattle-Tacoma region and the more constant aspects of the electrical situations was excruciating and I wonder if there had been some sort of permanent aspect in reference to the technological stuff. However if I am accurate in certain references of some of the portions of which I wrote of, that would mean a court summons is required for the different portions I wrote of and as of now that has not been delivered to me.
However whether some believe it or not, my Medal of Honor Art Project is essential. So is the dental work I need to have done, however until that can be taken care of in full immediately; my Medal of Honor Art Project is of importance as it always has been as the teeth which are affected do cause additional problems for my headache and migraine pain levels which in turn does cause additional problems for me. I had discussed that point with dentists when in the state of Texas before winding up in Washington state as well as two dentists up there, though only certain procedures were considered as acceptable instead of what I requested knowing it would be more beneficial for my headaches and migraines to be lowered dramatically. Only because of the quarantine lockdown had that been put on pause, however now the need to get that taken care of in both ways are essential. What else I consider as essential in reference to me, is the SCUBA Diving aspects of for a multiple set of reasons and aspects of though some have not viewed such as of importance to me as it has been to me; which also includes the aspects of my writings, and the work I had put into making sure my writings of my books were legible and concise enough for ease of understanding. However, wearing corsets is not essential for me personally in the way some others may have viewed such. If you feel that me wearing corsets is essential, then did you actually know me as myself or care to at the time? I was involved with so much well before ever wearing corsets and though I do enjoy wearing corsets, that is not the only thing about or what makes me who I am. There is far more of which a lot is than simply just one aspect about who I am and what I have been through, of which each aspect listed above and so much more had been of what is parts of what makes me who I am well before ever putting a corset on. As a matter of fact I had told several people well before my corsetry, I had wanted to write spiritual books for better and clearer understanding in a variety of ways and topics thereof which would mean the books I authored along with my Medal of Honor Art Project actually align up to prove such original intentions. Though I had worn a corset style dress to an event, such was not the corsetry most had seen me wearing at events nor in most of my modeling images.
Which takes me to another point reference of which I would like to wish, that it was not a problem in such as I had believed similarly as an individual I met with tonight had believed about someone known to that individual. Back in 2008 during that Presidential election year as well as in 2012 Presidential election year despite all of the additional aspects of what I was dealing with at the times, there had been many people in my life who had a large problem with my political points of view. They were willing to degrade my opinions and beliefs while they ignored the aspects which they claimed they wanted in real life depending upon the topic of which since the 2016 Presidential election and into this year of 2020 Presidential election, those I especially had held near and dear to my heart for many years despite what had occurred and how I wound up in Washington state since my return to the state of Texas; such has been a difficulty in reference to meeting up and though the aspects of the COVID are supposedly whatever the excuses in reference to such are, I have not hidden my political nor hidden my religious/spiritual views and opinions nor have I hidden the reasons as to why. For several months of which I had left fabric at an individual who I looked at as more than just a photographer to make corsetry for me to wear, after months of waiting I had been told I could pick up the fabric instead of the finished pieces despite having told the individual what such was going to be for.
Had I been informed prior to picking up the fabric of such not being willing to be done, the amount of time wasted staying in the location of when I could have done other things with such would have been done so and would not have bothered to leave such entrusted with. Though there are some who wrongly think it is acceptable in reference to the President of the United States of America and the First Lady of the United States of America catching the aspects of the COVID, that is not acceptable in my opinion to hope such for them by any legal citizen of the United States of America. During my volunteering block walking today I had come across a male who said he was happy the President of the United States of America Donald Trump had caught COVID, which personally offended me. I doubt6, I would be the only one in such.
If people in this era are at the point which they cannot look past the political belief differences while still respecting the professional aspects of the work accomplished, I am at a loss for words for such. Human beings were not meant to be alone and yet because of the excuses thereof in regards of the so-called COVID as I have my own personal opinions of the aspects thereof in a different format, the distancing which has occurred is quite disgusting and disgraceful. When I wound up in the state of Texas despite what I had been dealing with I had remembered when Texans were genuinely friendly and returning to such in reference to now the COVID stuff going on, I have still seen quite a few Texans with wonderful aspects though how many who have changed who they are or have changed the aspects of how they present themselves is a bit off putting to me; and I do not think I am the only one who can see such, in that manner. The garbage which has occurred has made me genuinely reevaluate returning to this state despite the reasons for the justice aspects of for the judicial portions needing to be addressed, though even such is truly difficult for me to deal with and with what I have dealt with over the years is a big deal in reference to writing such being too much for me.
Quite frankly, that is too much pressure to deal with. With the culmination of what I have dealt with, that speaks quite a bit of volumes as I have complained in certain references giving warning signs of the over unnecessary aspects of; however realistically, how such was not seen as it being too much is beyond my understanding. What more was needed for such to be realized of the so-called COVID being far too much, and a breaking point? Was the fires off of the various areas not enough of an additional coinky dink, hypothetically aligning up in the timing of? Or are there more aspects before it is understood enough, is enough?
In such I also remember a male from when I was in Medical Hold Unit in 2000 before it became Warrior Transition Unit, for a few different references. One reference which personally I find a bit amusing as one day I had spoken with Watson about why I had fought to be emancipated to join the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces in greater detail and he simply shook his head side to side repeating my maiden last name, as he continued with some paperwork I was going to have to sign. As he listened to me ramble on and on his ears perked up when I told him about wanting to join the infantry, and he stopped working on the papers telling me what the MEPS station told me about in reference to my gender. I shook my head saying I knew to then tell him about wanting to join the Calvary and learning there were no longer horses at the time, though making a joke in reference to the horsepower. Again Watson shook his head side to side repeating my maiden last name a few times, repeating the same points. Then I told him about wanting to join combat arms and again he shook his head side to side repeating my maiden last name, getting back to the paperwork still shaking his head before asking me "Why would you want to do any of those jobs?"
I sat up straight saying though I suppose asking, "How else, would I get to be in the Special Forces?"
He looked at me as his hand was on the paperwork shaking his head shortly after saying my maiden last name a few times which I guesstimate he probably still does certain things similarly nonetheless the following day at the coffee machine area were little golden colored pieces of paper with an invitation to join the Special Forces, and after making the coffee I ran back to the orderly room with the piece of paper in my hand excited as I could be "Watson! Look! I can so, join the Special Forces!"
He looked up from the desk and shook his head side to side again saying "No, you cannot join the Special Forces. You did not graduate basic training, and you are going to be medically boarded out. You cannot go into the Special Forces, though you are quite special."
I sighed and rolled my eyes and since I was still 17 years old, there are those who know exactly how that looked; though the additional aspect of wearing my BDUs as I did the stereotypical thing for a teenager of throwing my hands in the air, and sighing. Watson shook his head side to side repeating my maiden last name while preparing to inform me of another round of counseling statements, though I think those were because I forgot to salute a Colonel, and then simply said sorry before running off before I forgot what I eventually forgot I was going to do because of my memory deficits and of course having been yelled at for attempting to not forget In such, causing my pain levels to rise upward, and increase as well. I admit fully I had gotten into a smidgen bit of trouble at times in Medical Hold Unit, just a faery sized amount of trouble at times each and every single week. I can laugh at myself, now. It was what it was, as the military saying is. Nonetheless a few days later there were CID agents waiting in the seating area after I returned from making coffee for the morning, and after they got a cup of coffee I went with them to their office to speak with them; though not about Special Forces specifically when speaking with them at the time, though there were a lot of questions I cannot remember they asked and I answered honestly. Though still irony in the timing, admittedly.
The secondary aspect after the discussion with those different agents had been in reference to asking me questions about certain individuals in specific in regards of Medical Hold Unit as there was one individual which the CID agents were particularly interested in with the last name of Carrolton, I think he had been a specialist. The questions had been in regards of the cocaine aspect which someone had overhead and then they asked me about in regards of him sprinkling some of the cocaine on himself just before getting physically involved with a female as well as another soldier in reference of her being an escort as the CID agents reminded me of what was and what was not considered as acceptable when in the status of active duty, national guard, and reservist status. The ginger red haired female who either possibly an E3 and being chaptered out though I recall she drove a darker green Honda Civic and had pale skin complexion from Houston Texas as she said, was of particular interest to their questions almost as much as in reference to Specialist Carrolton; a lighter hair color male with a slight tan complexion, who was a bit taller than I had been. In some ways looking back now there had been an odd feeling when he spoke with me in reference of how I felt extremely uncomfortable and if I can recall correctly, he had said he was in the infantry before being sent to Fort Sam Houston to be in Medical Hold Unit. The two of those soldiers had been friends with one another and might be why the CID agents were asking questions in reference to such, though they would know far better than I.
Nonetheless while I have known there are certain aspects of humanity which have needed a bit of a guiding aspect for the betterment in understanding, there also has been a bit of disgruntled aspects in which I have felt not only from my own personal experiences; though also from those who have had to sit by and watch, waiting for the time when to proceed forward. Being empathic, clairvoyant, clairsestinent, clairessentiant, having medium capabilities as well as several other energetic aspects and the ability to work with as well as pick up on top of the headaches and migraines, can be quite frustrating at times as it is not the easiest to keep in check at all times in the lesser noticed sort of way. I do and have done what I can to maintain composure despite the levels of pain though in reference of today's walking and the way the app worked in reference of the technological glitches I am uncertain if such was because of the glitch in the portion of the app, or if it had been because of my pain levels rising and having to keep such under control to push forward where I could without being too much of a whiny complaining baby about the pain levels surging. Though honestly as always the pain levels before winding up in the state of Washington from Texas from 2013 through to 2019 in Washington for what was a level 3 on a 1 to 10 scale for my headaches then, is now much more painful for my level 3 on a 1 to 10 scale after returning to the state of Texas from Washington. What a 9 to 10 migraine was back before winding up in Washington state feels more like a 3 on the 1 to 10 scale for a headache, as the electrical stuff has been difficult to put mildly.
I have wanted to get back into SCUBA Diving as I know it does assist with the pain level despite the aspects of the compression though there are several reasons which I feel the need to do so, beyond just my pain levels though needing the teeth aspects taken care of first. While yes there are the aspects of gathering further pictures as well as gathering some specimens from the bottom of the ocean for scientific purposes, there is also a feeling of the ocean needing to be jump started in an odd sort of way with a lack of better words. I cannot do that from the Gulf of Mexico region of the ocean, nor can I do so in the region of the Pacific area of the ocean as because of where I had gone to I know where the section is that would need that sort of a jolt for lack of a better terminology. The best way I can put such into a description is in reference to one male I had dated which I had done the equivalent of an AED to his apartment to get him to come back to life, though a more recent situation in reference to Hobby Lobby and assisting to get a female to stop having the seizures that she was having at the store at the time I was there. I know such might come across as odd, though at this point realistically; what about me is truly considered as normal, or my life as it is in full?
However there was a point in which I had asked in response which did not go over well when I was asked why can't I just be normal or have a normal religious viewpoint, "What is normal? Is normal what society dictates to us to believe, or is normal what each individual feels such to be?"