2018 I was working on my Medal of Honor Art Project while raising my son #Letters4James the best I could while doing the best for my daughter #Letters4Lidia before the summer of 2018, when my son went to graduate high school early through getting his GED and then went into the Army in 2019. The relationship I was in during that point in time ended shortly after my son moved out and I had to figure everything for myself, for the first time just for myself. I volunteered up until that point in time though knew I needed to get my SCUBA Diving #WSCUBA works in order, in conjunction to other works such as my other books I authored and compiled.
2019 was when the factors of my PTSD kicked into high gear and I thought I could handle the situations through fac9ing them head on, yet if I was good enough for anything from that point in time I survived all of the PTSD issues that came in a flurry all at once and yet throughout the year of 2019 through 2021. I traveled from the state of Washington #Washington #Washingtonstate #WA #StateofWashington out to the state of Wyoming #Wymoing #stateofWyooming #WY down to the state of Texas #Texas #Texasstate #stateofTexas #TX to Washington DC #WashingtonDC #DC back up to the state of Washington, down through to Santa Monica #SantaMonica #SMCA #California #stateofCalifornia #Californiastate and back to Texas while dealing with everything including my PTSD situations and triggers from the year of 2019.
In 2020 while updating my journal blog and going through the PTSD triggers in conjunction of attempts to reconnect and connect with others I was involved with some political rallies and I traveled out to the state of New Jersey #NJ #NewJersey #stateofNewJersey #NewJerseystate #NJ #NJTP #GardenState for the first time since the year of 1998 of having been in, though also went to the state of North Carolina #NC #NorthCarolina #NorthCarolinastate #stateofNorthCarolina to swim in the Atlantic #Atlantic for the first time since the year of 2009 and prior to that the year of 1997, something quite enjoyable for me personally that I can think of from such points in time. I completed some work regarding my Medal of Honor Are Project from the 2017 and 2018 timeframe, while I worked on planning my Medal of Honor Art Project trips for the upcoming time.
In 2021 I went back to New Jersey and drove through pushing myself to see the New York City areas #NYC #NewYork #NewYorkstate #StateofNewYork #NY while attempting to deal with and recover from my PTSD from the situations regarding 2000 through 2013 and before the timeframe of the 20 year memorial from the 9/11/2001 factors though also the 30 year memorial from the year of 1993 before the timeframe in Washington DC in the beginning days of the year of 2021 in the month of January, and I saw the Pentagon #Pentagon 9/11 memorial while also stopping at several other areas in the DC area. I worked on my Medal of Honor Art Project a bit in the state of Texas completing the San Antonio area and a few areas nearby to San Antonio #SATX #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTexas #MiitaryCityUSA, though I went to the different areas throughout the state of Texas regarding the locations my specifics for how the work should look was important to the outcome of the pieces as it always is. When I returned to the state of Texas I could distinguish my PTSD was at a high and I needed to calm myself down and thus I moved when I could to be closer to the east coast, and I went to an area that had a lot of commuters to the DC area that was like the area I grew up in for the World Trade Center regarding commuting factors.
In 2022 I rang in the New Year in Virginia #Virginia #sstateofVirginia #VA and swam in the Atlantic beginning the year while traveling to a few locations before I began and completed my Dr. Mary Edwards Walker Collection, and planning the works for my Medal of Honor Art Project while considering several factors. That year I drove as far north to New Castle on the east coast and as far south as the Florida Keys #NewCastle #NewCastleNewHampshire #NCNH #FloridaKeys #KeyWest #KWFL #Florida #NewHampshire #staeofNewHampshire #stateofFlorida #NewHampshirestate #Floridastate , though I spent some time swimming in the Atlantic testing myself and my swimming strength during the winter months early in the year. Then I moved from North Carolina back to the state of Washington and my PTSD from my SCUBA Diving went in full force upon seeing the Nimitz #Nimitx #NimitxClass , the same class of naval ship that the USS/USNS General Hoyt Vandenberg #Vandenberg #GeneralHoytVandenberg #GeneralHoytSVandenberg is amongst a few other situations that triggered a few factors that I needed to deal with in conjunction with a few other factors that I simply had to cope with. I went to the Montana Vortex #MontanaVortex #Montana #Montanastate #StateofMontana #MT several times and in September 2022 the overwhelming energetic factors of a memorial nearby to where I was living in conjunction to the timeframe, I went on a trip to calm myself from Washington to Montana to Georgia back up to Montana and then to Tennessee #Tennessee #TN #Tennesseestate to recover the best I could from all of the situations,
In 2023 I spent some time in Kentucky #Kentucky #stateofKentucky #Kentuckystate #KY before making my way to Indiana #stateofIndiana #Indianastate #IN where the situations in Zionsville occurred, and during that point in time when I was hospitalized is when I began to self-evaluate several factors of myself and my life. I did not know if I was accurate and correct or if my PTSD was getting to intense for me at the point in time, and thus I decided to check myself into a location because of my depression to review myself and review my circumstances. Am I good enough to live on my own and take care of myself properly, and have fun? Was everything real? Did I truly see and experience and survive all of those factors, and was/am I worthy to survive such? Have I made a good use of my life knowing that I survived a TBI that was so much that I survived a coma and survived the subarachnoid hemmorhage, have I done well enough? Did I assist in positive ways for betterment? Did I make worthwhile decisions? Did I make a genuine effort to assist? Those are just some of the questions I sought answers from myself that I have been pondering since, that point in time.
The beginning of 2024 began to a rocky beginning and having been working through recovering from COVID just the same as the reality of, is the same as the reality of my life.
Does it take a head injury to figure out that I have traveled a bit and survived, and am thankful?
Should it take a head injury to figure out that I have been living to the best of my capability and would it take a head injury to figure out the formative years from 2000 through 2013 despite the PTSD, gave me the strength to overcome the adversity that I have faced in the timeframes of 2019 through 2023?
Now I ponder, what do I do from this point in time that would be enjoyable and fun for me?